yet another...

had quite a major fight with G on last Saturday...it was a pretty scary one for me..

was supposed to meet him on thursday after dinner with the nonsense pte ltd to buy BR ice cream. i reached home at about 9 and chatted with Yi Wenn for 20 minutes...that was when mobile rang and i went "ohhh shytz".

he was angry and disappointed no doubt...so we talked for a moment and he hung up later....sms-ed him before i slept to apologize...

we were ok on fri...he even took me to pg bowl as he had bowling with his friends, the normal bunch; chew, ewe, nicholas, anand and a new guy i hv not met b4, alex (i think)....

on our way back, we chatted happily like normal...i thought things had really ended there and then....but when i mentioned about QB, he grew agitatated and snapped at me telling me not to mention anything about QB or BR or whatever happened on thurs night....i was hurt but i know it was my fault so i kept quiet...

he came fetch me on saturday after work...he drove to town to get hus bak kua...and he asked me if there is anything i wanna eat...so at that time, i had sudden craving for milkshake...so i told him what i want....and again he snapped at me..."don't u mention anything bout ice cream, choc milkshake to me anymore. i waited whole night for you on thurs thinking of buying BR together with you. but u were happily eating BR at QB and i was waiting for u. i din even had my dinner!"

i never really expect such a harsh statement from him. but then again it was fault. i dare not answer back...so i chose to remain silent...and he assumed i was throwing tantrum at him...so when we reached home, he slammed the door, threw his keys on the floor and started arguing with me...to be frank, i was really shocked and scared...i have nvr seen him losing his temper in such a way...to me, this is a bit too much...but come to think of it, i guess i was the reason for that too...cos the same thing has been repeating again and again...well any sane person would also lose their temper....he didn't hit me but his reaction really scared me to a certain extent...

i hid myself in the toilet and cried...is this the man i really know? is this how he will react in the future during our arguments? I was scared...and a lil disappointed...i nvr expect this to be coming from him...and the hurtful part was he did not soften even when he saw me crying and weeping...i seriously do not know if this is acceptable or not...i guess to most people it is not..but is it acceptable to me? i don't know....i dare not think about it...i mean will it happen again? if it happens, then what should i do?