small white lie

celebrated bryan's birthday on last Saturday at Eden Fairways. we had the usual thingy, steamboat la. angel and the gang went to buy food in the morning. Offered her my help but she said she could manage it.

told my mom i would overnight at the apt but the actual fact was i went back to G's house. i know i should not be lying to my parents but can't help it really. cos they don't allow me to sleep at his hse no matter how i tried to convince them. they would say "girl it's not a pretty sight." hence, the title of the day.

this would be the 3rd or 4th time i overnight at his place. so most of the time i told my parents i'd be sleeping at my friend's house. hehehehehe...bad girl, ain't i? but anyway, i just wanna spend more time with him. the last time i planned to go genting with him, my dad disallowed and we gotta cancelled it. so sorry dear, i know it wasn't easy being with me. 1st my friends, then my parents.

so he came to eden fairways and fetched me back home at bout 2am. was kinda tired so went straight to bed. we cuddled and he actually whispered "love you" into my ear. he kissed my neck and hugged me to sleep till the next morning. sooooooooo sweet. i'm really head over heels in love with this guy. MUAKZ!!

i wanna plan for a holiday together at the end of the year for his birthday. but i do not know where to start. gotta find out from him where he plans to go and see if we can get cheap air tix. i actually wanna go hatyai, bangkok, bali etc etc but sigh....budget constraint as usual. fortunately there will be a matta fair coming in July i think. well we can go there see look see look. hope the lady luck smiles at me.

fingers crossed!!

simply romantic

This is forwarded to me from a colleague of mine. it is simply romantic. only if G can treat me that way. I'm not complaining but there is always room for improvement isn't there?

1) Put your arms around her waist and whisper in her ear (he has done it but minus the whisper part)

2) Make her feel wanted every chance you get (lukcy me, i do feel I'm wanted by him)

3) Hold her close when she's cold (well, this has yet to happen, cos everytime i feel cold in the cinema, he is also cold, so end up i'll be holding myself and he holds himself instead)

4) When you are alone hold her close and kiss her (ok this happened before and it is still going on)

5) Kiss her on the tip of her nose (yes he does)

6) In the movie, put your arm around her, lean in and kiss her (no he doesn't do it. he's does not really like PDA)

7) When she complains her shoulder/ neck hurts, massage for her (ok wokay, I am lucky as he usually will massage for me when i complain i aches all over)

8) When people diss her stand up for her (he will undoubtedly do this)

9) Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her (i am still waiting for this to happen)

10) Lay down under the star, let her listens to your heart beat and link fingers together (err...now seldom got stars d la...)

hen lang man ahhhhhhhhhh!!!

My very first grand entry

as grand as the title may sound, this blog of mine would revolve around my love life mostly. these would be where i pour all my feelings and experience i have had with G.

we have only been together for the past 7 months, but trust me it feels longer than that. a lot of times i thought i am mature enough, but after listening to his point of views, i find that i over estimate myself. i feel stupid and silly, not because he made me feel that way, but from what happened between us.

he sees things differently from most people i know. and he thinks a lot too. most of all, whatever he does or plans to do, it involves me. i would say i am really very lucky to have him in my life. cos he really prioritizes me. he really puts me ahead of everyone and everything else which at this point of time, i fail to do the same for him (i know it's my bad).

we had a huge fight last Saturday, and i made him cried. to cut a long story short, i overlooked his needs. well he mentioned that a few times to me before and we did argue about it, but it was just some minor arguments. you would have asked how could i commit the same mistake over and over again despite the reminders and arguments we had. i gotta admit i am a bit slow and stupid in this kinda thing. sorry dear. i never meant to hurt you and made you cry. forgive me for that. but trust me, everytime we argue, i listen to what you say and i tried and am still trying to improve and work on it. cos i will not give up easily. i know patience is not a virtue you have, but please understand i am not perfect.

i don't purposely do it to upset you, but at times, i guess i did it without realizing. i know there is no excuse but all i can promise is try not to repeat it again. i will learn to say no to my friends and i will learn to plan with you on my mind.