Bad day

why does all the bad things have to happen to him? 1st tech support ANZ is closing down. and he is offered a position he doesn't like and can't excel. i know he is really upset about it but nothing much can be done. It's management decision which can't be changed and he has got no say at all.

and now he lost his SE P1 mobile phone which he used for less than a year. why are all the bad things happening to him? and why does it have to happen at the same time?

i really hope this is just another bad dream. things will be back to normal when i wake up; TS anz is not closing down, he is performing as a team lead....

i'm feeling so helpless now. how can i help?

Just for you, "My Valentine"

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldnt love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine

You're all i need
My love, my valentine

L.O.V.E

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.I
love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

- Crystal Jansen -
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Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away

- Rex A. Williams -
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I wrote your name in the sky,
but the wind blew it away.
I wrote your name in the sand,
but the waves washed it away.
I wrote your name in my heart,
and forever it will stay.

- Jessica Blade -
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Love is the greatest feeling,
Love is like a play,
Love is what I feel for you,
Each and every day,
Love is like a smile,
Love is like a song,
Love is a great emotion,
That keeps us going strong,
I love you with my heart,
My body and my soul,
I love the way I keep loving,
Like a love I can't control,
So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start.

- Meghan -
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When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

- Chris Engle -
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How sweet can this be?

He may not be the gentlest guy on earth,
He may not even be the perfect guy you dream of,
He may sometimes lose his patience,
He may raise his voice when he's angry,
And he may not be someone
You want to have around
When he is in a real bad mood

But to me, this guy has a very important place in my life...he isn't perfect, that i already know...and he even smokes...but i choose to accept him for who he is...cos he is being honest...and he respects me...he loves me for who i am...even tho i had some history....

he understands me,
he knows my needs,
he knows when i am sad
he knows when i am happy
it is as if he is able to read my mind
and know me more than i know myself
he makes me feel secure and loved
and it feels great to be in his arms

i may sound really silly but i really love this guy...no one knows what will happen in the future. I just wanna enjoy my moment with him as long as i could. I don't know if i'd be with him or not, but i really hope this relationship can last. every moment spend with him, is my perfect moment.

yet another...

had quite a major fight with G on last Saturday...it was a pretty scary one for me..

was supposed to meet him on thursday after dinner with the nonsense pte ltd to buy BR ice cream. i reached home at about 9 and chatted with Yi Wenn for 20 minutes...that was when mobile rang and i went "ohhh shytz".

he was angry and disappointed no doubt...so we talked for a moment and he hung up later....sms-ed him before i slept to apologize...

we were ok on fri...he even took me to pg bowl as he had bowling with his friends, the normal bunch; chew, ewe, nicholas, anand and a new guy i hv not met b4, alex (i think)....

on our way back, we chatted happily like normal...i thought things had really ended there and then....but when i mentioned about QB, he grew agitatated and snapped at me telling me not to mention anything about QB or BR or whatever happened on thurs night....i was hurt but i know it was my fault so i kept quiet...

he came fetch me on saturday after work...he drove to town to get hus bak kua...and he asked me if there is anything i wanna eat...so at that time, i had sudden craving for milkshake...so i told him what i want....and again he snapped at me..."don't u mention anything bout ice cream, choc milkshake to me anymore. i waited whole night for you on thurs thinking of buying BR together with you. but u were happily eating BR at QB and i was waiting for u. i din even had my dinner!"

i never really expect such a harsh statement from him. but then again it was fault. i dare not answer back...so i chose to remain silent...and he assumed i was throwing tantrum at him...so when we reached home, he slammed the door, threw his keys on the floor and started arguing with me...to be frank, i was really shocked and scared...i have nvr seen him losing his temper in such a way...to me, this is a bit too much...but come to think of it, i guess i was the reason for that too...cos the same thing has been repeating again and again...well any sane person would also lose their temper....he didn't hit me but his reaction really scared me to a certain extent...

i hid myself in the toilet and cried...is this the man i really know? is this how he will react in the future during our arguments? I was scared...and a lil disappointed...i nvr expect this to be coming from him...and the hurtful part was he did not soften even when he saw me crying and weeping...i seriously do not know if this is acceptable or not...i guess to most people it is not..but is it acceptable to me? i don't know....i dare not think about it...i mean will it happen again? if it happens, then what should i do?

Broken jade

sad sad...my dear is very upset today....he broke his jade ring...been wearing it since last year nov or dec...he liked it alot....

i din know how it happened...he din exactly tell me...not really in the mood to talk bout it i guess...or maybe he is just too busy...hmm...

i plan to get him a new one...suggested we go look for it...but he doesn't seem to be too keen with the idea...said broken d means bad sign wo...duno how to comfort him also...i feel sad too....

my twin suggested to get him a rose quartz stone/ crystal...if we give it to our loved ones, it will help to protect them (smth like dat la)...so i'm planning to ask joe to help me find...want to get him a ring if possible...but a bit difficult to get lo...nvr see a crystal/ stone ring before....bracelet n necklace yes...sigh...

i just wanna cheer him up....but i duno wat to do...='(

one after another

i feel bad; i'm gonna lie to my parents again this time. i'll be heading to malacca on this coming saturday 12/7/08 and coming back on 14/7/08. asked G to fetch me to bus terminal and he suggested to me to overnight at his place.

well u noe my parents, they simply don't allow me to do that. not good for my reputation if people get to know about it. sigh...the last time i planned to trip to genting with G was cancelled bcos my dad didn't allow me to go alone with him. that time i could understand becos we dated for less a month or two. i know he's worried, he doesn't want me to get hurt, but i've dated this guy for 8 months already. so now wat's next?

i really don't wish to lie to them but if i tell them the truth they are not gonna allow me to overnight at his place. but since i'll be away for the weekend, i just wanna spend some time alone with him before i leave for malacca. hmm....gonna miss him alot...